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wanna cry

2005-05-06T01:53:00.000+08:00

i'm tired... real tired... physically and mentally
can anyone save me??

i'm still me

2005-04-21T16:06:00.000+08:00

14th april~
first dae of work... met up wif a fren together go... den we were taught thr how to make sandwich... like which meal muz go wif wad ingredients like tt... it was real fun.. got this fierce lady come ask me change my glove before serving her... i changed and prepared wad she wanted.. she was like keep staring me how i do it etc... i very nervous lo.. den anyhow do for her.. make her bread until very lousy... den quickly wrapped it up... den i wrap till e paper tear.. den i quickly throw inside e plastic bag without her noticing it... heez... hope she's not angry wif me.i worked for 5.5 hrs.. very tired... lolx.

15th april~
hmm.. i was separated from my fren.. means we got different slot... lol.. anyway.. i was almost late.. luckily... onli got to work for 5 hrs todae.. reached thr saw my schedule.. tis coming fri,sat,sun.
friday(22nd):1800-o130[OMG! it will be till midnight]
saturday(23rd):1700-2300
sunday(24th):1700-2230
hmmm,... friday will be till midnight... sure very shagged... nvm.. can take midnight cab back and claim from them.. anyway... i got back to work quickly and surprised tt it was 2 times more busy than yesterday.... haizz... i made a terrible mistake.. got this guy came and i forgotten to put the meat in... den he came back for it and my supervisor laugh till his head drop... lol... so pai seh lo... ended @ 11p.m... tired again...

17thapril
went to NUH visit da b.. dunno why he admitted again... he very jia lat... got so many probs... he also very sad... was with him for ard 4 hrs? took a cab thr cost alot... $15.... heartache... lol... listened t his probs and gave him advise.. den i go back le...

18th april
todae was supposed to meet dee and shirley.. cos their first day skool... we went thr acc them... me and ly.. met ly @ central..den wait for her to hv her pic taken.. den we headed for NYP... we reached thr.. couldnt meet dee cos her break cancelled? den i bring ly walk ard the school... showed her ard.. and brought her to her digital media design center... after she satisfied wif the walk.. we went to find food.. she dun wanna eat from the school.. so we went to the yck stadium to look for food.. dun hv=( den we took a bus to amk jubilee for lunch... we ate japanese food... spicy.. den we make our way back to nyp to meet dee.. den we played bowling... very fun cos i score very high.. den played pool thr too.. my cousin ZW came and played cards till 5a.m with ZH.

20th april
i went out again.. met ly first @ e mrt.. she going clementi for orientation on his job while i was going NUH again at buona vista.... visit da b again... he really very pain... his scar still bleeding lo.. den inside got alot of phlegm... i didnt tok much to him and let him rest while i wait for liying.. i saw a very beautful nurse lo.. how i wish i was hospitalised too...hmm.. ly and i had lunch thr and we went to meet dee and shirley @ orchard... we reached thr early and saw ziyang.. talked to him while waiting... den met up wif dee and shirley le we started to go find the building.. walked for 1/2 hrs under e sun... finally reacher and they got their books... $148 for 3 bks? expensive.... den we had to split up and go diff. place.. i follow shirley to far east plaza to get herfresh box tee... den ly followed dee to pacific plaza to get her pants... and soon.. we met up again and head back home... i talked to sook mei on phone for ard 1 hr++... she very high.. lol.. den tok to dee for ard 2hr 1/2... den all tired le den i go slp.... lol... she d/l alot alot of songs.... hope i can get my com real soon.. dun wanna use laptop anymore...

21/april
stayed @ home catch ants... lol.. i got another job to distribute magazines... either tml night o sat night... really hope it wont clash...zh and zw doing with me... hmmm..okie le la.. i really blogged very long le.. gonna change fish tank... and need to call back cyndee and zw...

i'm back

2005-04-14T12:53:00.000+08:00

been missing for a very long time le... i'm back! ermmm... my b'dae 2/4 was quite fun... went out with cyndee.. liying.. sook mei and met up with weihsin.. jo.. and her brother.. things turned out not right... ermm.. not worth mentioning anyway... hmm.. fer was back after my b'dae... we went out again... night life.. lol... went eat satay.. we went out almost everydae?.. hmmm... now budget le.. have to stop spending... got a job at lido thr... SUBWAY... anyway... starting todae.. so... after i come back den i blog

probs

2005-03-22T20:48:00.000+08:00

I HATE MY LIFE NOW!!!

lol

2005-03-14T17:45:00.000+08:00

juz in case someone finds excuses not to sing during my b'dae..... joanna!! u promised me.... lol... haix,... my o level result was a total disappointment... dun wanna tok abt it here.... =) had quite a great time this few weeks... i stopped working @ BATs.. it was really very tough and tiring... lol.. todae went job hunt wif cyndee... Our first job is doing road show.. pay quite gd.. $6.5/hr.. and the venue always change... we will be doing it for citibank.. =) have to go for their formal interview during thursday.. hope both of us got in.. ('..') my second job is about charity promoter.. means we have to go ard selling postcards for charity... so.. frens.. better dun saw me.. else u hv to buy from me!! $2 each... advance orders welcomed! haha.. went out wif dee.. liying.. joanna and weihsin two days ago.. went ps de summer spoon.. lol.. e food sucks.. we went to paradign to play pool after tt.. hv to wait for so long... but in e end we got the table... we played ard 5 games and my team lost 4... argh!! dee cheat lo... keep dun let me shoot.. den move e white ball ard... haha.. anyway.. it was quite fun...

busy..

2005-02-27T15:36:00.000+08:00

haiz... has beeen so so so busy lately... went to BATS(British American Tobacco singapore) to work.... start as a packer... 12 hrs a day could really kill me... i guess i will be quitting soon! lol.. couldnt stand it.. hmm... yesterday... went out with winniefer cyndee and sook mei...damn fun.... walk 30 mins trying to find k-ster... reached thr we sang 4 hrs... dee.fer and sm realli got high... so funny... lol... very cheap thr.. we each paid about 11.5 onli... cheaper than k box.. planning another karaoke outing soon.. lol.. after tt we went eat steamboat @marina south.. lol..... eat till very full.. cos we whole day nv eat anythin............. haiz... tomolo take result..... so vexed and nervous now.... sian.... dunno how i would score.... blog tml when i take result.... =(

back!

2005-02-13T22:26:00.000+08:00

finally... back again... lols...i'm having fun thr everydae... first dae... everybody come our hse bai nian liaoz... received so much hongbao... den second night we went watch seoul raider.... damn funny.. laugh till i sorethroat... wanna watch it again in s'pore... den after tt we went ard... went penang... when drivin thru the penang bridge... my uncle tell us tt the bridge is famous for suicide... say tt alot of ppl went thr to jump.... eerie...den ard 4a.m we went to a beach in penang... thr was no one except us... so eerie again... we saw lots of crabs thr... 100++ all running ard... when we get close they ran off... very cute..=) second night we went watch move again/.. but this time we r so disapointed... the movie is damn lousy.. and the seat is dirty... we got rashes on our hands after leavin the seats.... we played bowling and billiard on the second night too... very fun and interesting... after movies.. we went 4 supper.. went eat malay food... den my cousin not happy with their service... den scold them....i was so....... pai seh... cos she say till very loud... den bang the table... lol... third day.... my cousin called us go her hse.... den went thr awhile den we go lots of place bai nian.. again,...got so many hong baos again... den at night we went supper with cousins... sit thr chat very long... den we go pLay fun fair... was so dizzy after that.... my dad went gamblin and lost 2 k+++ lol.... very unlucky hor... den we make our way back to s'pore at ard 10a.m.... make a long stopover at ipoh... went shopping.... den come back le... very dangerous while on our way back here..my dad drives with eye half opened... den the car like swaying... lol... anyway... its quite fun la... heard my frens and budd is havin fun last night.... good to hear tt... =)

fraustrated!!

2005-02-06T22:15:00.000+08:00

oh no!! gonna die le..... result coming out 25th of feb.... couldnt imagine wad i'm gonna do on tt day... haix... anyway... here to blog before i go malaysia tml.. looked forward to going thr... gonna hv a great yr thr... so... have to apologise to weihsin... jo... dee... yun! cannot accompany u all to dinner... so srry.. have a great time! Recently met this 'sis' from yahoo while playing mahjong.... she is real good! lolx... she intro to me all the great places in switzerland.... well... happy knowing her....well.. lots of sad things happened huh? jo.... cheer up... go out more often.. dun always stay at home hu si luan xiang...and this wei hsin ... tok to her online nv reply de.... dunno wats up with her.... yun!! u always reply after i called u several times... lolx....guess everybody is busy.. =) tests and exams coming up every now and then.... wish i was studying too... not used to freedom now... haha.. anyway... i already planned to study media design .... or maybe audio design.... seems great... haiz... all my frens having prob at the same time.... i noe abt hsin and eugene de thing le... den jo and irwin.... den yun and dunno who... but i guess they wont regret their decision.... i also have my own problems now... dun wanna tok abt it here...well.... i guess tts abt all... i'm leaving for malaysia!.... cya guys.... have a great CNY.. enjoy yourself .... =)

i'm here again

2005-01-24T14:13:00.000+08:00

Been slackin and slackin.. lol... nth interesting to do... so.. tried to find a new layout... i'm quite satisfied wif this... its quite cool.. =) thats wad i think.. leave comments if u happen to pass by here.. hmmm.. this few weeks been experiencin loads of prob... i wont say anything here from now onwards.... miss everybody... lol... dee... my newspaper.. when can i get them? juz spent ard $250 and now i am completely broke... lol... still got alot of things wanna buy... like e nicholas mtv vcd.... limited edition... wonder when i could get them.... hmmm... i will be leaving for malaysia again on e 7th of feb... gonna go thr bai nian... so... wish everyone here a happy chinese new yr.... rmb.. man dai er gui.... wish u all hongbao fat fat.. lol...

still in malaysia

2005-01-04T15:16:00.000+08:00

haiz.. lots of things happens huh? i met this nature disaster and earthquake here.. killed more than 10000 ppl... scary.. one of my relatives is involved and is missing too.. i have been here to help out.. pray.. hardly had any fun... during the earth quake... all of us here suffered from bruises... and there is a high possibilities that there will be a second one coming up... OmG!!! i will be flying back to singaporte in another week time.. hope everything will be safe for me.. lol.. hmmm.. seems that jo had probs again.. srtry that i am not the one to console u this time.. =) cheer up... dee they all muz be having great fun.. haha.. everyoine out thr still studying... work hard for ur o level... AND.... hsin... its been awhile since we last chat huh?

back!

2004-11-03T17:06:00.000+08:00

i'm back!! well.. cos i dun feel like updating my blog... becos of someone... tt someone make me feel so much distrust again her... haizz.. nvm.. forget it... Social Studies was easy... surprise sia.. this yr de Social studies.. turn out easy... thought it will be difficult... todae got 3 paper... english paper 1 and 2... physics... english was quite tough? bt still can cope... physicx? gone case... sian.. i make a big mistake... by writing my answer at the wrong place... oh my..... haiz... nvm...since its over.. den forget it le... tml also 3 paper... damn sian lo... emath paper 1 and literature 1 n 2... stress... haven started reading lit... zhe mo ban..? take a step as i go ba.. =)....
budd: dun be sad over the matter... this thing could be solve... look... alot of ppl care abt u..dun make their concern turn into nothing.. stand up!... u got to help urself and be decisive.. tok to tt ger if there is a must... dun let us down wor... jia you!

For everything.. there is a season
And a time for every matter under heaven
A time to be born and a time to die..
A time to plant and a time to pluck up what u planted...
A time to kill and a time to heal..
A time to break down and a time to build up
A time to weep and a time to laugh
A time to mourn and a time to dance
A time to throw away stones and a time to gather stones together..
A time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing
A time to win and a time to lose
A time to keep and a time to throw away
A time to tear and a time to sew
A time to keep silence and a time to speak
A time to love and a time to hate
A time for war and a time for peace
A time to wake up and a time to sleep

evy to go backerything

2004-10-23T18:23:00.000+08:00

haizz.... fate? nono... couldnt be... its just coincidence... met her at tuition yesterdae... at first... i dun wanna go in de... den wan go home... but dunno why.. in the end.. i still went in... i caught a glimpse from her eye... it was a pair of unforgiving... confusing eye... i dunno wad to do.. i sat behind... attention was more towards her... and rui hong... a loser... everytime lost to me in everything... he made use of the chance to make me feel hopeless... depressed... he deliberately got close and tok to her in an interesting manner... at the sight of it... i felt something... i realli lost... mind was whirling... i lost her totally... thr is no way to go back... predestined...tt night.. i walk ard... in the heavy cold rain... i got myself very drenched.. i seems to hv dropped something.... i was realli depressed... for so long... i've not confessed to the people i like becos of her... everytime i wanna start my confession... she wll strike across my mind.. i noe tt maybe i culd be wif her... but... in the end... why muz so many sad and cruel endings accompany me when i was abt to take the final lap of my run?

i dreamt of funny things recently.... all my frens... ppl i noe... passed thru the gate of hell... but.. i wasnt allowed to pass thru... i was tied down wif something.... could it be those sad and cruel endngs... waad will my ending be? will it be as cruel? i have yet to let go of the past... wad am i gonna do....i hv lost the energy and strength to fight for the things i like and the peoples i love... no more hua ying xiong....! cos...his story has ended....

tiring night out

2004-10-16T16:58:00.000+08:00

whoo.. lastnight went out wif zhi hao.. jack.. alex.. wilfrred.. john .. sharul.. wei lun.. was so fun man... wei lun send us to the entrance of the old mental hospital... den he went home liaoz.. so dark sia inside.. we ride using the 3-2-2 formation.. infront got light behind got light too.. quite safe.. reaching the old mental hospital.. so eerie sia... inside.. the whole lights was on.. i dun think anyone inside lo.. so late le.. but.. the lights is still on.. eerie... den we made a detour... when we past by a truck.. i saw someone standing at the top looking at wad we doing.. got a shocked sia.. ppl infront didnt see it.. so... what could i be seeing? lols.. den alex suggest going blood pool.. dunno whr the hell is tt place.. all the rest rejected... and made our way to punggol jetty den damn tiring lo.. on the way thr.. zhi hao de bike not enuff air.. so wilfred race the bike to petrol station and have it pumped.. so nice of wilfred sia.. den we reached the entrance of punggol jetty... shahrul.. me.. alex and zhihao waited outside.. cos too tirin to go on... den after tt we went home... hao me and jack and wilfred went to compasspoint de 7eleven and had some food and drinks... den we rode to alex hse put bike... while waiting for wilfred's father to come... we played cards at alex de house.... damn fun man/...den reached home at ard 2a.m...... today... woke up at onli 4 p.m sia... damn damn tired lo... now.. still as slack... monday having o level pracitcal... hope i could do well n go to TP... media design =) byex

yAwNzZzZzZ.. stILL tIReD

2004-10-01T14:12:00.000+08:00

gawdzz... was so tired.. still tired.. yesterdae slept a total of 14 hrs... muhahaha.. haven count how many hrs i slept in class.. .. hmmm... went out wif deex ..gwen..yinghui..jack..desmond..
yisong.. went to marina south first for dinner... had a feast thr... joke thr too... yisong went back after dinner.. cos her mum was scolding him le.. den left me cyndee.. yinghui and jack.. jack and yinghui say wan walk to eastcoast.. den dunno whr they bring us.. walk one big big round.. den reach marina south again... idiot.... den still hv to walk very far to catch a cab.... den we waited very long... no cab want to take us in... yinghui tot is his face prob den no cab wan to give us a ride.. he went to hind and... a cab stopped at us... wahahahaha... realli.. face prob.. den we reach east coast.. hv to wait for gwen and desmond... cyndee and i wait for them at mac while yinghui and jackson went ard looking for a $3 pool center... hmm... disappointed them... they returned and waited wif us... den we went to surf com.. free usage in the mac.. we tried to go into other ppl blog... but cannot and the com hang... we approach the manager... he restart the com for us and then a guy damn guai lan.. come demand ying hui let him use... yinghui deliberately made the com hang den giv him.. haha... beri idiotic... den we went to play pool above mac.. gwen .. dee.. and me played for an hour den we go surf net le... yinghui.. desmond and jackson played billiard.. play veri long.. in the end also acc us surf net.. after awhile.. we went to the beach and played cards... ard 5 a.m.. we went to take bus to sch.. reach sch at ard 7a.m.. we changed and clean up.. den went to class.. all of us dead tired lo... yinghui and jack even slept till miss recess... wow.. a fun nite out... =)

sLaCkInG..

2004-09-29T14:54:00.000+08:00

muhaha... slacking now... gonna go out have fun.. whole night not going home... morning den go school with jackson.. yisong.. yinghui..desmond.. gwen.. and deex... gonna play all night long.. after tonight will start preparing for o level le... haha.. if tml got p.e den sure die.. too tired to play.. haha.. tml come sch bath and clean up.... wow... gonna be damn fun... will be back to post after tonight... will tell u all how we spend this night... lolss...

tired...

2004-09-22T15:12:00.000+08:00

woah... damn tired... todae de physics paper die liaoz... si de hen nan kan..... all dunno how to do.. can get over 10 marks i happi liaoz... all those i read and study abt didnt come out... so sianz... after exam played bball wif my frens.. eugene karliang... mingkai and wei lun... played till very tired... injured my ankle... very pain... yesterdae go play pool wif jackson and cyndee... den injured it... damn sianz... den now sore le..... but.. still manage and struggled to play bball hahazz... beri tired now... gonna take a rest now... tomolo e math paper2 and dnt... think all gonna die le.. ('-')

nEw bLoG!

2004-09-21T05:50:00.000+08:00

woah! got this new blog... my sis help me make de... good... =) prelims is driving everyone crazy.. so bored and tired now... just now after exam went central.. den yinghui chased me ard cos i said smth wrong.. haha.. lolz..den met deex.. hilda.. fer..wanting.. anna... shirley... gwen.. den we were toking abt the zhonghua guyx..gonna catch him out one day and make him apologise... haha.. today paper quite difficult... was almost dreaming thruout geog exam... den math also quite difficult.. not enuff time to finish.. yesterdae bought alot of things then come back refurnish the whole living room... the desktop is in the living room now... quite convenient for everyone... now waiting to be repaired... carried alot of things up and down yesterdae... tired... damn tired... went to bed early... den shirley mas me at 1 a.m... replied her at 4a.m.. haha.. cos actually planned to wake up and study de.. but too lazy... den slept all the way to six thirty.. hahazz.... ... ... ... this few days thought of many things... couldnt tell or share wif anyone... i think they will be too busy to hear me out... nvm.. hv to keep to myself first... not yet in the exam mood... still slacking... but... soon... o level.. will work hard... gotta go rest... might be online later.. jia you everyone... soon the exams will be over.. ... ... ...